Dare To Be Everything
if you are a thinspo/fitspo/weight loss blog, please reblog and i will follow!

foreverthinnn:

i want to follow for support and show others my support, i need more motivation and i can certainly give other motivation.

Got Home From the Beach A Few Days Ago.

Felt like shit in my bathing suit.

Felt shitty in general.

But I’ve found inspiration here on tumblr.

Thinspiration, to be exact.

So today, I begin.

Height: 5’3

Current Weight: 134

Current Goal Weight: 115

Ultimate Goal Weight: 100

Current Calorie Intake:

Large DD Coffee w/ cream and sugar : 120

Poptart : 420 (ugh…)

15 Grapes : about 53

Roll : 150

Exercise:

1 hour on the treadmill : 584

1 hour of tae kwon do : 730

100 situps : 78

Total Calorie Intake :  743 - 1342 = -608

So I have 608 calories left over for dinner ♥

Wish me luck!

And stay strong!!!!!

Hoping I can run today and get away faster than ever from here
Another night and who can say if leaving is better than living in fear?
Here’s to all the broken hearts tonight
Here’s to all the fall aparts tonight
Here’s to every girl and boy
Who lost their joy, they let it get away
You know it’s never too late
Get up and start all over again
You know it’s never too late
There’s got to be a better way
Don’t settle for the cold and rain,
It’s not too late to start again
Find a way to smile
And never let it get away
Its been too long and we’ve been down and out without laughter
No smiling, just tears
We’re tired of falling down and being such a disaster
We’ve been here for years
Here’s to all the broken hearts tonight
Here’s to all the fall aparts tonight
Here’s to every girl and boy
Who lost their joy, they let it get away
You know it’s never too late
Get up and start all over again
You know it’s never too late
There’s got to be a better way
Don’t settle for the cold and rain,
It’s not too late to start again
Find a way to smile
And never let it get away
I’m gone, I’m gone, theres got to be a better way, I’m gone
You know it’s never too late
There’s got to be a better way I’m gone
Never Too Late by Hedley
So…

Remember my friend?

The one that broke my heart?

She spent the night at my house after we went to our friends birthday party.

After she left this morning, i checked my computer.

She had left up her dA account.

So… because I’m a fucking horrible person, I read their PMs.

What.The.Fuck.

I’m thinking, Why didn’t she tell me?  Hurting herself… Being Hurt… Insulted… Hated…

This girl live in another state.

But I’m RIGHT HERE.

SO WHY THE FUCK DIDN’T SHE COME TO ME?

Doesn’t she trust me?

I just… don’t even care anymore.

My heart is done with this shit.

One of my other friends asked me out… I said no.  When they asked why, I said I loved someone else.

FML.

Scratch That.

I fucking hate you both.

Go to hell.

Oh Hey.

Fuck you dad.

You are a total ass hole and I hate you.

And mom, you aren’t helping.

FML?

I have had a crush on my best friend for two years.  A few weeks ago, she told me she was bisexual.  I came out to her as bisexual as well.  I did not tell her that I liked her.

This past weekend, we went to the mall.  We held hands and ran around like idiots, like we always do.  Lots of people stared and were like omg lesbians.  We just laughed them off as always, and screamed ew straight people!  When we got to our normal lunch place (chinese~), I was going to tell her.  After all, I had just broken up with my boyfriend because he was an ignorant little fuck and I loved her so much more…

And. Guess. What. Happened.

She took out her phone and showed me a picture.  Of her girlfriend.  And then talked about her.  The whole time we ate.

With every word she said my heart broke a little more.

I didn’t tell her.

So what did I do?

That night, we went to a pool party.  I was wearing a bikini, and this one guy was flirting with me like crazy.  I flirted right back.  He is one of her best friends.

I like him.  A lot. And he likes me.  A lot.

But I love her.

So… what now?

And On That Note…

Thanks for caring Mom.

Its not like I’m, you know, crying here.

Its not like I’m lost.

Thanks a ton.

Again?

Why do I feel so useless sometimes?

So broken?

So lost?

So alone?

Why do I feel like crying?

No trigger.

No words.

No cause whatsoever.

I just randomly feel like I am about to die.

Why is it happening more often?

I am so happy.

Then.

Bam.

I feel like my world is collapsing.

What the hell is happening to me?